Well everything is better today. My mom and me had a heart to heart talk for about 2 1/2 hours. I cried she cried but it's all better now. I realized I have a lot of stress because I woory to much. My mom told me worry is a lack of Faith and I beleive her or at least I think she is right. You know I'm concerned that my real dad isn't going to come to my graduation. I've been thinking about that a lot recently, but tonight I realized I can't control other people. I'm the only person I can control and I have to stop worrying about everybody else.
I miss Eli and that is another thing I've been worrying to much about. I'm concerned about the end of the summer and what's going to happen. But I've realized it's not something I can control. I love him but I can't worry about it. I have to let it happen because everything happens for a reason.
Well I'm watching "Panic Room" right now so I'm going to get back to that. It's getting to a scary part. Ahh! I'm scared!